moving out

So I finally moved out of my parents house a couple months ago, and into a very nice one bedroom apartment with my amazing boyfriend. My parents were not exactly pleased to hear about my plans and a lot of people didn't understand the decision we made but in the end we decided they didn't have to we were happy. I went with him on a trip to las vegas to see him try out for the American Football League, he played amazing and we had a blast. Unfortunately he was passed over for a player with more game film than he had, and was told that if he came out next year and showed the same amount of talent then they would take him to training camp. So next year we will return to vegas and also go to omaha so he can tryout there as well. Im excited!!

Welcome to 2010!!!

so its a new year, kinda crazy how fast these last few months have flown by. my new years celebration was extremely low key this year and honestly i didnt mind one bit. yes i was invited to big parties and celebrations all around town, but after working until 10:30 tonight i kinda just wanted to hang out. i wasnt really in the mood to go be around a ton of people and drink a whole bunch just to regret it all in the morning. SO... instead i rented some movies and bought some junk food (you should never shop when your hungry) and simply relaxed tonight. it was GREAT! im excited for this new year im gonna try to make some positive changes in my life. I know resolutions never really stick... i guess im not looking at this as a resolution for the new year so much as positive changes in myself that i will have to choose each and every day. I want to read through the entire Bible (i just got a new one for my birthday a couple weeks ago!) i want to eat healthier, i believe that will help my health and i wont get sick as often cause as of right now i dont eat very well :/ and i want to exercise a TON more which should be easy since i dont really exercise as of now oops! something i have already been working on is not gossiping as much, its a lot harder than you think especially working in a restaurant. people gossip nonstop at work and its not really something i want to be a part of. i also want to start doing random acts of kindness again because i think the world is lacking in selfless love and no matter how small something might be for you it can completely change a persons day to have something nice done or said for them. i just want to show people love a lot more because its not like i have a limit on how much love i can give out. im not going to run out of it so why not share it with everyone!? besides " its never a mistake to care about someone" - Radio

I hope everyone had a safe a happy new year and that this coming year brings you lots of love laughter happiness and success.

xoxo

Jess

Ouch!

So I'm not sure what the pain is all i know is that it HURTS! I have been having super bad pains in the left side of my back where my kidney is for almost a week now. Its not continuous but it is definitely more often than not, and the pain is certainly increasing. Somebody at work today said that it might be kidney stones...i don't know why but i thought only guys got kidney stones? just goes to show what i know.
I get to see Tuck Tuck tomorrow!!! I am super excited. granted it is to take him to the vet so not a super happy occasion... ut i still get to spend the day with him. I guess he is super itchy and his skin rash is back, which is bad. I feel so so bad for him when he is like this. He just itches and bites at himself all the time and its so bad that he scratches and bites off all his fur in certain areas. then he looks funny. But i cant imagine being THAT itchy all the time, he must be absolutely miserable. poor guy.

it's been too long

so it has been forever since i last wrote anything...sorry. I have been super crazy busy. My life pretty much consists of eating, sleeping, and working, its super boring. I do however love my work, the people i work with are super fun and make my job very enjoyable. The people i serve are generally very nice happy people. I do however occasionally get the grumpy needy mean just plain out jerks that make me resent my job. I really do try my very best with every table that i get to get you everything that you could possibly need or want. I am there to make you happy and ensure that you have the best experience possible. BUT you are not the only table i have and my tray can only carry so much and the kitchen can only cook your food so fast and i am only human so i do make mistakes and i do forget things, so please if you have an issue with the service that i am providing you PLEASE do not go behind my back and seek out my manager and complain to them and say nothing to me, just tell me that you have a problem with how i am attending to you or that you need something or whatever it is that you are so upset about. TELL ME, ME,ME,ME. Because im the one who has to correct whatever it is that is upsetting you. I still have to continue to serve your table so if you have an issue talk to me about it please dont go behind my back!

eye gouging!

My goodness!!! these headaches are going to be the end of me i swear. I feel like gouging my eyes will definitely help my head feel better... if that crazy??? I feel like thats a sign that im going crazy. this is weird but you close your eyes and then mush them like you were to attempt to gouge them out (like a crazy would) they feel really weird like marbles covered in jello or something...i don't know its like 6 in the morning and i have the worst headache EVER! and i swear im not crazy if you had this headache you would be considering self eye gouging too i promise. I'm going to take some more medicine and then once again attempt sleepy time. Good night world!

XOXO

Just Relax

So I realized today that in order to succeed in my job i just need to relax, a TON. I get way too anxious and tense and over think everything and then i freeze up. If i can keep calm and loose and relaxed and simply be myself i will do really really well. I did amazing today in debriefing when i wasn't really thinking about it and carrying on another conversation (i know not a good choice when talking to the manager) I had a lot of fun laughing and dancing and working the line in the kitchen with the other trainees this afternoon because i was able to be relaxed and myself. I seriously just have to stop over thinking everything maybe just stop thinking about all together and simply let it come to me. thats what i am going to focus on tomorrow, i guess we will see how it works out....

Freak Out!

I started my new job as a server at the Olive Garden monday. I have never been a server before and i am training with three other people who all have over at least a year of serving experience. it is majorly intimidating! I totally rocked my interviews and my orientation day but completely bombed out on my first training day. I froze up on every single role playing exercise and freaked out and suddenly couldn't talk like all day long. So embarrassing. I stumbled over all of my words and my brain just shut down every time i got called on, it was BAD. I couldn't even open the bottle of wine, not the foil or the cork. As training went on i just silently begged for the day to end and for me to be able to get out of there. I so dreaded having to go back again the next day.